Thinking Thoughts

thought after thought

burns a hole in my mind

though their well traveled roads

are no friends of my soul

my mind is neatly undone

by possibilities gone wrong

so that every thought i think

leaves me tired and denied

the peace

my heart so desperately craves

and knows is rightfully mine

as daughter of the Most High God

a child of Him Divine

 

one breath

i praise Creator God

who speaks nothingness

into life

and

all is lovely

right and sure

at rest in His design

alive in rightness

rich with new

in the spaces

given

me

near

the waters

where

i

abide

 

then

 

i take

 

one breath again

 

and light

no longer shines

 

darkness comes

my soul forgets

and truth

lies set aside

His life breath

seems to find

another

one

no longer

steady

in the swirling

restless

rivers

of my

God-forgetting

mind

 

it’s there i wallow

stuck between

thoughts

gone wrong

and thoughts

gone stale

and thoughts

i won’t let rise

above

the

mundane

grit and grime

of

necessary

earthbound

daily

living

 

and i rightly sense

the presence

of the lies

of one

who never

ruled divine

but spends his air

suffocating mine

and laughing

that i lose

again

my God centered

hope filled

trust anchored

sure footed

eyes

 

and so i pray

for strength to climb

up out of deep

and undivine

chasms

of broken heart lines

that steal and threaten

and destroy

and aim to dwell

in the home

that was meant

for the One

who knows more of me

than even

i could tell

 

and then one step

toward His grace

becomes

His brilliance

pulling me up

and through the quiet

in the still

i hear sweet whispers

and unmuted words

of love

and sacred joy

come again

to sweet sweet rest

in the pastures

of my soul-mind

and i embrace

with joy

and glad smiling eyes

the life

He speaks

as

always

ever

mine